(( This is written at an odd angle, like she had it perched somewhere. ))

I got a letter from Violeta and went to Dalaran immediately after. With Dek about and Varkev back from his re-training or whatever the fuck they're calling it I find I can leave for a little bit, and when it comes to family I ain't got much choice. Koru's growin' up anyway and I'm not sure how to take it.

I'm a little weirded out by dad right now. He was sorta lyin' in bed all curled up 'round Bec, he didn't say much to me, just said something about "mana three times a day" which I figured out when I picked up the gem thing, so it's morning and I've given it to her. I wanna tell him to get up, go for a walk, something, but whenever I open my mouth he gives me this look and I just can't talk.

I ain't ever been so uncomfortable 'round my own dad. He ain't let go of her since I've been here, and the nurses said he only let go once after bringin' her in.

I dunno if I wanna know what's goin', but I really hope she's gonna be okay... and I'm really glad I'm not on active duty anymore.

We're good, she forgave me and we've got a better understanding, I think. She's as bad as me with the feeling shit. Bec was supposed to show up last night, but she didn't - I dunno where she went, I've been holdin' on to my hearthstone all mornin' and hopin' to hear her come on and say sorry for bein' late I'll be over soon. If she's still fighting, whoever else pissed her off must've done a real number on her to have her that worked up.

I'm worryin' over nothin', but it's what I do. I do it as well as I do everythin' else.

And none of it's real nice.

Good: Red's alive. I owe him a drink so he can tell me where the fuck he's been and what the fuck happened.

Bad: I forgot to watch my mouth.

Fuckin' Ugly: Bec's supremely pissed off at me.

Stationed in Sholazar with side trips to Dragonblight. Hating every second of it. I don't know what to do about Bec - maybe she'll come around? I know I've gotta watch it.

Red knew me well enough when he was Warcaller. He knew, when I said I was fuckin' Darda, that I was crazy about her. ... I probably shouldn't have told Bec that, shoulda left it at "the kid knows me real good and knows what I mean".

It's a fucking wonder I can keep a woman for longer than a week.

Gonna re-fill my canteen on one of these side trips. Left my stone in my room. I just don't wanna talk to anybody.

(( His writing is a sloppy mess! ))

wedding. informed with an hour to go. needed more time to prepare myself but did not happen so fuck it i stayed for the thing where they say shit to each other all "i loooove yooou" and shit like that

fuck. weddings. not going to one ever again. especially not of somebody t

fuckckck

i'm staying right here on this loasdamned bench til idunno something happens or i fall asleep or whater fuck